Warning:  The music accompanying this peace is not for meditation. It is experimental and disturbing to some.

Without the dark you can’t see light or the form light creates. Pain is very real in this world and I question those who do anything in your power to trick themselves who run from their pain instead of standing with it, learning from it and understanding it.   There are a lot of fans who connect with the music I make here, in the dark genre, because it is of substance and it is real, instead of drifting out of consciousness.   As an listener, these tracks disturb me, but they are an expression of something very, very real, tangible and something that many people find connection with, in a world that is quite competent at preaching love and light… and yet assisting in the action of making walking zombies.


Drown… drowining.. is what we do.  We allow ourselves to drown in love and then, when love ends, we drown in the loss of the perception of love that we had with that person.  The illusion that was created in infatuation.  We drown … because we long for it as humans… not the infatuation, but the real love.  Real acceptance.  Real understanding.  In the literal, when someone drowns, you don’t go quietly.  I’ve witnessed death by drowning.  It’s noisey. There are levels of consciousness and unconsciousness, panic and succumbing…  I think emotionally, we go through the same thing.  There are many levels of soul loss in drowning in pain.  In this life, the difference is made when you resurface and become a Phoenix.  It is not a simple task. ”

“Pain insists upon being attended to. God whispers to us in our pleasures, speaks in our consciences, but shouts in our pains. It is his megaphone to rouse a deaf world.”
― C.S. Lewis

“People are afraid of themselves, of their own reality; their feelings most of all. People talk about how great love is, but that’s bullshit. Love hurts. Feelings are disturbing. People are taught that pain is evil and dangerous. How can they deal with love if they’re afraid to feel? Pain is meant to wake us up. People try to hide their pain. But they’re wrong. Pain is something to carry, like a radio. You feel your strength in the experience of pain. It’s all in how you carry it. That’s what matters. Pain is a feeling. Your feelings are a part of you. Your own reality. If you feel ashamed of them, and hide them, you’re letting society destroy your reality. You should stand up for your right to feel your pain.”
― Jim Morrison

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